I asked a reddit friend of mine for s*xting. I feel ashamed of myself.

I chat with a lot of people here on reddit. I'm mostly here on reddit for NSFW stuff and sexting. But once I wanted to be productive in my real life and stop this idiotic behavior. So I texted a redditor from Accountability sub. Everything was good for 2 months. She and I really became good friends sharing even the personal stuff ( we shared another platform to chat ) But after 2 months I saw a reply in my chat from another girl who I DMed a long ago( from an nsfw sub )... She wanted to have a video s\*xt on snapchat. The shitty addiction of mine again kicked in. So i asked her for her snap ID... and then... I saw that her reddit account was gone. That triggered that horny reddit s\*xting a\*hole in me. searching for other women out here...But haven't got any. Blinded by horniness and addiction of sexting I made a idiot move . I asked that girl who really became a good friend of mine " can you sext with me as we are strangers ". She said "wtf". I said "sorry... let's forget I ever asked that". But she blocked me ( Obviously... what did I expect ) I feel very guilty that I lost a good friend ( better than most of my real life friends.) I made a mistake... So girl If you are watching this by any chance.... I'm really really sorry... That's all I can say.