I (F18) broke up with my Bf(M19) of six years and now I feel like a FREAK

It sounds like I’m putting myself down but it’s completely the opposite. I feel like a FREAK, rather than a freak. Me and my boyfriend were on and off for six years, yet we never had sex. It was never a huge problem, but now that we’re not together it’s definitely something I want. Like this is SO TMI, but not sure there’s a better way to put it lol. I would’ve been content to live my life without sex if I stayed with him, but now I don’t think I could. It’s not even sex, more like I have a fixation with wanting to suck somebody off I guess. I have no idea when it happened, but one day it just wasn’t enough. It’s not that I’m unattractive, because I know I am. He made jokes, but never actually made a move. I think I just want someone to match my energy. That’s not exactly you can tell anyone except your close friends, and they think it’s odd that I’m moving on only a few months after the breakup so I can’t exactly confide in them.