i beat my abusive boyfriend the fuck up and it felt a m a z i n g

I’ve been with my bf for a year. he’s great when he’s sober but give him just a little bit of liquor and he’ll turn into a monster. yesterday we were out on a date and he got into some road rage thing, 2 guys came out of the car to beat him up and he pretended to reach out for a gun that didnt exist. i went along with the story and said “why would u pull ur gun out on someone every day” guys got scared and left. then he checked and it turned out that he broke the glove box handle of his new car in the process. he cussed at me for being “bad luck” i tried to leave the car and instead of letting me he crushed my face in his chest (he always does that and it left me with a black eye before, he loves to brush it off as a “hug”) i pushed him away so he bit my lips really really hard that they bruised and started to bleed and i had bruises on my face and nevk from the “hug” he had stitches on his wrist and without realizing while i was defending my self i bit through them and then we basically beat the living shit out of each other until i ran out of the car and got into a cab. this is the first time that i’ve ever beat him up and it felt satisfying as fuck. i have no empathy towards him honestly. oh and i also used his seat headrest to break his ac and windshield. he ruined many of my belongings and i just feel amazing about the karma that i put in place. oh and i also finally left.