I’m a pervert girl failure 18F

All I do is sit in my room, watch anime, draw, masturbate. I own at least 7 different dildos and spend my time masturbating, I think I have hyper sexuality or something like that Basically I’m a loser with no life. I own two anime body pillows which I use to grind and fuck on, which feels good, but then afterwards I feel like those memes of greasy discord mods I can’t help but stare at strangers when I go to stores, wondering what kind of underwear they’re wearing..sometimes a guy will have a bulge and I can’t help but stare, gross? Yes. I know. But it’s just the way I am I try to make the excuse in my head that it’s fine because I’m a girl, but it’s the same either way. Regardless just wanted to get it out there, talk about my issues and whatever else