I don't like my kid

Hi, I’m a 33 year old man & I run a business in north India. I got married 3 years back through an arranged setup. My wife isn’t much good looking. She delivered a baby boy last year & my baby doesn’t look good. He is dark & not so cute. Whosoever take my baby in their hand say he looks little weird. This is giving me bad thoughts & I have been thinking about his future, where a society where everybody judge others basis their looks. I don’t have likeness or doesn’t feel love when I see my kid. I can’t share this anyone therefore chose to share in this App. I know I’m wrong because he is my blood but there is no love whatsoever. I don’t feel like even thinking about my next kid, I don’t want kids anymore. Please don’t judge, let me know have you ever felt the same.