My husband (newly married) doesn’t want to have sex with me, we only ever had sex twice in our entire relationship.

I had just gotten married to my husband earlier this year, we’ve dated for about 2 years before we got married. Before marriage, I’ve never even considered sex, as I only believe in sex only once I’m married. Fast forward to our marriage, we had sex only twice. Once when we were both drunk and the second time was just to “try it out”. Both times were horrible as we both could not come. He tried to penetrate me but everytime he does he gets soft almost immediately. The first time we blamed the alcohol but the second time we were just frustrated. Ever since then we never had sex. Everytime I initiated sex he would almost completely avoid the topic. He would masturbate in the bathroom all the time. Once I tried to ask him to come and try it again, he said he couldn’t, as he felt that my pussy does not feel good. That has made me so insecure. I was a virgin when I met him so this shattered my confidence. I’m not sure what to do now as I’m a very sexual person and he’s the only guy I’ve ever had sex with. I’m not sure what to do now.