My boyfriend doesn’t know that I know he’s in love with his best friends girl.

It never hit me like that until I saw the way he looked at her one night. It absolutely broke my heart. So anyways, I’m slowly planning an escape but we do share rent in our expensive ass loft in NY. I love him soooo much but I know that deep inside there’s someone else he loves and every time I’m around them I can just feel him drawn to her, glued to her. If I can see it, so can everyone else. And I can never mention it because I know he will get defensive and I could never win that argument because he’s going to say ‘how could you think that, that’s my boys girl’ or belittle me or even tell his friends. So anyways they’re all goin to Colorado next week for a birthday that I didn’t “feel like goin to” because the thought of feeling like number two makes me sick to my stomach.