I made a ton of money gambling in the stock market but I have to keep knowledge of that from my wife

My wife and I are in our 30s and we’ve been married for a few years now. For about 2 years I struggled with a gambling addiction daytrading in the stock market and lost a grand total of about $90,000 which was a huge part of our savings. Eventually she kicked me out of the house and I had to get a temporary apartment. She told me that unless I changed and get help and stop gambling she’d divorce me. This was about 8 months. I got a therapist, went to gamblers anonymous and stopped daytrading. She eventually let me back home but said we will have separate bank accounts until further notice and she would keep track of our savings and investments. Unfortunately due to life circumstances, I ended up falling back into temptation. Because I make decent money (I’m in the medical field), with separate bank accounts, I ended up opening my own brokerage account with an IRA account and deposited a few thousand into it. It started as just some day trades and swing trades. Just because I wanted to try and make back some money. But I recently got incredibly lucky when I bought call options before Moderna’s stock rally. I made over $335,000. Well over what I’ve lost of course. While most people would be ecstatic about this, I’m sitting here going “I don’t know what to do with this money”. She doesn’t care about the money because when I had a gambling addiction, I neglected her and our son too and basically was an absent husband and father. I know that even if I told her I made that money, she might still divorce me. I know this because for April fools day joke I told her I won a lottery ticket for $1 million. Her first reaction wasn’t excitement but rather concern and questioned me why I was gambling again.