i absolutely hate being transgender

hopefully this doesn’t get sniped by auto moderation that so many communities have implemented. i am a transgender man (girl-> guy). it is genuinely one of the most horrible things someone can go through. i’m going to preface this by saying that being trans is a choice for some, but not for all. for some trans people, it’s an identity and a means of self expression. for others, it’s a deeply upsetting medical condition. i’m the latter. it’s not fun for me. one of the worst things about it is the misinformation and straight up baseless hatred. no, i dont want to push my “ideology” on anyone. i’m not forcing anyone to call me anything. i don’t poop in litter boxes or identify as a cat. i’m literally just a normal guy. i’m a functioning, otherwise average human in society. and people will hate me and want me dead because of a condition i can’t control. if i could be happy living as a woman, i would. i tried for a decade, and i was suicidal the entire time. keep in mind, during these 10 years i was consistently in therapy and on medication. the only thing that helped the feeling was living as a man. that’s what being transgender means to me, and yet people assume i want to make kids in schools shit in litter boxes because fox news told them so. im not gonna hate on political beliefs, but if your beliefs see me as subhuman, im not required to agree with them. please consider that the people you’re hating are humans too. i personally haven’t done anything wrong, ever. next up is the dysphoria. every man reading this, imagine you shrink 6 inches in height. your chest grows and your hips get wider. i’m not trying to get this post taken down but imagine morphing into a female in every way. now imagine having to exist in the world like that. you need to go to the grocery store? you have to do it in a female body. people will look at you and see a woman, despite being mentally male. now, consider you find yourself hating being a woman. you want a male body to match your brain. you can do that! you just need tens of thousands of dollars and years of medical procedures. also the entire world hates you and sees you as a far left extremist for not wanting to be a woman anymore. also you’re 5’6 forever no matter what. now imagine dealing with this starting at age 11. imagine knowing that you’re going to feel this way until you die or pay in both time and money to correct it. it’s not fun. not all trans people are teenagers and young adults exploring identity and having fun expressing themselves with gender. there’s nothing wrong with that, but for some people it’s miserable. consider that the trans people you hate don’t like it either.