I regret being a sugar baby

Hi guys. 19f and started being a sugar baby as soon as I turned 18. At first I thought I would never regret it because I thought I could handle casual and I only went out with men I found somewhat attractive. Never got any stds or anything to bad. Always paid great. Even got to go on trips and meet some pretty important people as I live near LA and would be introduced by my rich sugar daddies. At the end of the day I am just lonely and I feel dirty. I wish I never did this and have been having constant panic attacks and feel gross. Maybe I did this because I was SA'd in my youth and thought I'd I'm going to be hurt might as well get paid for it but that is just not the way. I wish I was an innocent child again and I mourn the innocence I have lost. I miss dressing up and dancing with my dollies when I was 7 thinking one day I would meet my dream man and be his princess. Now I just feel like "daddy's dirty little girl." Its not a fun feeling. I just want to feel whole again I feel like less of a woman. If you are considering getting into sex work please think twice about it. You cannot undue what is done no matter how much evidence you erase or don't share you will always know. Edit: stop dming me weird stuff Im not selling pics. Genuinely get a grip