I was violently attacked by the man I just signed my lease with last night.

Yesterday started out normal. My boyfriend came home from running errands and I decided after he got home to take an edible. Usually I’ll take an edible and we’ll watch some shitty YouTube videos or play Fortnite. I was in a good mood because I start a new job tomorrow, and I wanted to spend one more weekend high and enjoying life before the inevitable misery that will be bestowed upon me when I start my fast food job tomorrow. I had laid down in bed right as the edible had kicked in, and I was watching memes on my phone. My boyfriend made a few off handed comments about wanting to have sex, but they were in a joking tone, so I thought he was just giving me a hard time, or trying to be funny. I was watching a video and he stops me and asks if he can “say something mean”. And I asked him if he was serious, or if he meant like a playful sort of jab at me. He said yes, it was completely serious. I asked him if it was mean enough to make me cry and he said “probably”. I thought about it, and still under the impression he was just being a jackass I said sure. He got as close to my face as he could, lowered his voice and told me “Bitch, you haven’t had a job for this long, the least you could do is suck my fucking dick. So come here” (I haven’t had a job for just over a month. My job fired me after I had a mental health crisis and I called in) I quite literally felt my whole body heave in some sort of horror. I stared at my phone screen for a long time, and all of a sudden he was back and fucking with my phone. He was chewing on the top of my phone screen. I told him “quit because you’re going to break my fucking screen protector and then I’m going to be pissed”. He grabbed my phone and threw it onto the headboard, and then grabbed me and pulled me on top of him, where he proceeded to grind his erection against my groin. I couldn’t do anything but quite literally just go limp on his chest and hope that he’d give up and leave me alone. He got pissed off I wasn’t into it, and asked me if I was on my period, to which I responded no. He asked me if I just “didn’t want it” and I said “not right now”. He like angrily sighed and shoved me aside and told me he was going to just masturbate instead and I told him that was fine. When I finally thought he had cooled down I laid next to him and put my hand on his chest. He asked me what I wanted and I didn’t say anything because I was still trying to process what had happened already. He grabbed my face and started making out with me, literally shoving his tongue into my mouth so far that I gagged. He forced me on top of him again and started grinding against me a second time. The entire experience going further was me faking enjoying having sex because I didn’t want him to hurt me, but he hurt me anyway. He bit my neck hard enough for me to wake up with bruises this morning. He bit one of my nipples so hard I screamed “ow” and he just laughed about it. When we got into a ‘69’ position he intentionally grabbed my head and forced his dick into my mouth until I almost threw up. The entire interaction lasted maybe an hour before he finally came. There was no aftercare. He just threw a towel at me and hit my ass hard enough to leave a raised welt on the surface. I had to take myself to the bathroom and clean myself up. I put myself to bed after it happened and just prayed I’d fall asleep by the time he decided to quit playing video games with his friends. Why did this have to happen to me?