Dead husband

Here is my confession for today. Husband (72m) and I(69f) married 45 years have hit rough times. Probably time to split and end this miserable situationship. Anyway, he NEVER misses 8AM Sunday church service but when I came downstairs today, his bedroom door was still closed. He hadn't roused by noon but I decided that if he was dead in there I was certainly gonna wait until there was no chance to revive him before I checked. Turned out he had been up all night with food poisoning. (He is cooking for himself these days) If God had decided to take him, who was I to interfere?