I’m a man with abnormally small genitals and I gave up on love because of it.

22M. I’m an otherwise typical man. Not crazy short (5’8), probs a bit better looking than average and ‘apparently’ have a good personality. I get along with people easily and come across as very confident. This is why I think I get some interest from women. I’ve been asked out every so often throughout my entire life by women I’ve been friends with, and have been asked for my number while working. It’s all very flattering to know people like me but I can do nothing about it and it’s an awful experience. Unfortunately, as the title says, my penis and testicles are really small. I don’t know why or what caused this, it’s just how it is. I’m pretty much a Ken doll. I haven’t been to a doctor to address this specifically, but I did get my testosterone checked and it is apparently normal, so it’s not a hormonal thing. It’s also not inherited; I had some embarrassing conversations with my dad and brother when I first realised and they noticed I was depressed, and neither of them have this issue. It’s a complete mystery, and I doubt there’s anything that can be done so I’m not even considering seeing a doctor. Besides the NHS waitlist for something like this would be super long I reckon, so what’s the point. Obviously this has been the most defining aspect of my life. When you’re physically different to all your peers, it changes how you interact with people. Thankfully I didn’t turn out bitter and hateful towards men and women like I’ve seen many like me become. I still maintain a decent social life with a variety of people and hobbies. Though It has led to me being completely closed off to relationships and dating, and as a result quite depressed. Although I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder before I acknowledged my physical shortcomings so maybe I’m just wired that way haha. The worst experience I’ve had was in uni. I met this beautiful woman through a mutual friend who I had tons of stuff in come with. I’m talking games, books, music, shows etc etc. We clicked like a so well it was crazy. So when she asked me out and I had to reject her, I just sobbed and sobbed. We don’t talk anymore. Understandably she doesn’t really want to be my friend after pointing herself out like that and being burnt. I got super depressed because of this and put on 20kg so I’m chubby now. I still make friends and can talk to people easily but I’m even less confident in my appearance. I’m working on losing it though. It’s a tough reality. Growing up I really wanted a partner, a family, kids. The works. I wanted to surprise my partner with random acts of love, like random flowers or dates, fun surprises yada yada and so on. Realising I’ll never get to do this because of my body was a real rough experience. I often morn the life I could’ve had were I to be born with a normal size. I don’t even want to be big, just a 5.5x4.6. Being an average guy would’ve been enough. But that’s just how the cookie crumbles I suppose. I know size isn’t all the matters in a relationship. But how many women will put up with no penetration? How many humiliating and embarrassing situations do I have to go through to meet one? I’m not strong enough to deal with all that ridicule and shame. Not now, and likely not ever. My only hope is I grow. I’ve read it can happen in the mid 20s although it’s very uncommon. I am shorter than all my male family members by a solid amount so maybe? Haha. I doubt it though. This is what I’ve got and this is my life. Maybe in the next one? Thanks for reading. It is way past my bedtime. Goodnight. Edit: this is my only account btw.