Girlfriend didn't believe me, destroyed my life, now saying sorry

I need help and advice. I am a 25 male. I had a girlfriend who is 25 too. We both had an amazing friend, lets call her june, who is 24. Me and my girlfriend, let's call her may. Me and May were friends for practically our whole life and we started dating at 17. She took my virginity and i took hers on my 18th (cool birthday gift?) and our relationship was perfect. I'm generally shy, quiet and love things soft and gentle. I usually love hugs and cuddles. One day while myself and were 19, another one of her friends, one they trusted well said i cheated at a bar june works at. They instantly went of at me, not believing me. I cried and begged for them to believe me, to trust me. But they didn't. We were trying for a baby at that time and she recently found out she was pregnant. May hit me, called her brother over to beat me, destroyed all our pictures together right in front of me and destroyed the book we made of our kinks we wanted to try one day, all in front of me while her brother beat me. She looked at me laughing with june, saying she will get a abortion. She did. The other night they showed up at my door, saying their friend told them the truth. That I didn't cheat. Now they are begging for forgiveness. May wants the relationship back, as we were actually perfect and beautiful together, completely loved and adored by her family. June was our great friend too, kinda like a protector. They showed up saying they know the truth, begging forgiveness and crying (like i did) may saying she still loves me and wants to try again, june apologising wanted her best male friend back. It's been basically 6 years since that night. I don't know what to do as after they left i got evicted, so now i live in a rundown apartment, im basically poor, my job is shit, im pretty much living off cup noodles. Im more skinny, hating my life and feeling no emotion but hollow empty. I have tired suicide and still think about. Please help if you have advice.