Found my cousins content online.

Not sure where to post this but it feels good getting it off my chest. I (44M) have a first cousin that I see a couple times a year. Never really close to her but in her 20’s she developed nicely. Now she’s mid-30’s and posts herself online for extra income. I have found some of her adult accounts and subscribe/follow them. I have messaged her on some of those sites with dirty talk telling her how sexy she is, how her boobs are amazing, how id love to have sex with her, etc… She doesn’t know it’s me and asked me for a dick pic. I sent it and she complimented it. I feel dirty for doing all that but I also enjoy the taboo side of it. It’s fun when I do see her, knowing she’s seen me and I get off to her.