I want to fuck our priest and i hate it

M24, been straight all my life. I never thought I could ever find a man attractive because, you know, girls are beautiful and gorgeous, so why would I like a man? But then I moved and changed churches. I am or was heavily Catholic bdw When I changed churches, I met a priest. He is probably in his 40s. He has this beautiful grayish hair, blue eyes, a sharp chin, and he is always shaven. And he wears this fucking hot black robe that is tight around his waist, with a huge ass and thick thighs. Like, he genuinely has one of the sexiest physiques I have ever seen. I tried to ignore these thoughts, but then I started talking to him after Mass, and we eventually became friends. And then I realized that I actually have feelings for this man, and I want him so badly. I even want to top him, which is something I never imagined myself saying about another man, but he is just gorgeous. He loves animals, he is into the same things I am, and we both love Swedish meatballs, which is a crazy coincidence. He is also interested in Ancient Greece. He is really funny, smart, and genuinely interesting. And the fact that he is a priest and I cannot do anything about it makes me want him even more. I would never actually say any of this to him or do anything inappropriate. I respect him, his boundaries, the church, and his faith. These are just feelings I have inside my own head, and I cannot control them. But seriously, I need help. I do not know what to do with this.