Recently lost my sugar daddy, just want to talk about it.

33 F living in the US since 2019 for work. I travel a lot and started feeling lonely. Eventually found an older gentleman who gave a weekly allowance of 2k and all he wanted in exchange was a bit of my free time to chat and talk about our days. It was wonderful. He was kind, attentive, and we developed a wonderful connection. I flew out a few times during our arrangement to visit and take trips together. I genuinely had a good time. Earlier this year (June 2026) he was put in the hospital and eventually passed away from a plethora of health issues. My heart was broken. I felt like I had lost a friend. I feel more lonely now than I was before I met him. When we made arrangements, I never imagined it would end LIKE THIS. Anybody have any advice on how to get past a loss like this? It’s not like I could show up to his funeral. His family found out about our arrangement after his passing and I received a lot of terrible messages about how I was a bad person, etc. It’s been tough and I just don’t know what to do 🫩