I'm probably gonna pay for college with sex work

My mom is going to kill me. But I've tried everything. I'm already applying to my summer job that gives me 40+hrs/week, I've applied to scholarships, but none of them got back to me (I probably messed something up on my end), I've only saved up a couple thousand, and my parents are very adamant that they don't want to help out. I'm so screwed. And this feels like an easy way to make cash? I did it a little before. Just dabbled and then stopped because I told myself I'm not gonna do anything like that unless I NEEDED it, and totaling up the costs of everything made my stomach drop. I literally am trying every loophole I'm only going to do light stuff, like bikini pics so legally its not pornography. I'm probably gonna sell used undergarments. I don't know, I feel like that makes a lot of people money? And it's not fair because I did pretty decent in high school. 3.8gpa, bilingual, state officer in a club. Whatever. While my total is coming out to be maybe 130k for an associates? And then I have to get a bachelors after which I don't even know the cost of that. Meanwhile my brother is paying 12k for all four years cause he's an athlete (a very good one though), after failing almost every class we had together. But I'm actually so proud of him! And now I have to resort to selling stuff, and hopefully only that stuff. And it's not right, I know what that kind of work does. On top of it all I'm waiting for marriage. And this defeats the whole purpose of that. And obviously I don't expect my partner to end up being a virgin or something while this is what I chose to do, it's hypocritical. Im just very confused how I ended up this way.