I genuinely hate being a mother and I don’t think anything is going to change it…

It’s been very nearly 7 years and all it has been is just a struggle. He literally told me that he got me pregnant so I’d stay with him and I left anyway because he was using heroin. He died about a year after our kid was born. I didn’t know about his drug addiction until after it was too late to terminate. If knew then what I knew now I wouldn’t even have to think about that choice. I love my daughter but I, from the depths of my soul genuinely, HATE being a mother. I’m in therapy. I’ve been in therapy for nearly 3 years. No amount of talking or medication will change the fact that I fucking hate being Mom.