One lie made everything complicated!

I was really on cloud nine during our first meeting. I simply admired how he took care of me and his affirmations of love. Until I met him, I never realized I could love, have lust, admire, get addicted, or experience everything else. It just felt like he was the one for my lifetime. A perfect partner...! But now, everything has shattered. He lied to me about his serious health complications. He is HIV positive, and even though he took extreme care of me, I am not sure how he could hide such a big thing from me. After getting married, he became frustrated and verbally abusive daily. Due to our families' involvement, we have now separated, but I still can't get over him. I still miss him a lot and want to be with him, but he hasn't left me any choice.