My Forced Marriage!

I'm a 25-year-old woman, and I never really wanted to get married. But because my parents are getting older, I agreed to marry a relative I never liked. It's not because he's a bad person, but I just never wanted him in my life. I expressed my disapproval to my family, but they tried to convince me that my feelings would change after marriage. So, I gave in and got married. Before we got married, he never really talked to me, and even after the wedding, he only responds when I message him. We got married in 2023, but I still don't have any positive feelings towards him; in fact, I still dislike him from my childhood. He is very close to his parents and shares everything with them, even our personal matters. He follows their instructions, and he buys gifts for me on their advice. But I feel guilty about it because I don't have any romantic feelings for him. Right now, he's in a different country, and I'm staying with my parents. The thought of living with him and having a physical relationship with him scares and upsets me. I never wanted to hurt him or anyone else, but I unknowingly hurt everyone involved. I'm overwhelmed with guilt. I regret not sticking to my decision of not marrying him, and this situation has had a significant impact on my career and mental health for the past two years since the marriage talks began. I don't know what to do now.